On to number 2!!!


YIPPY! This weekend we announced that there will be another squishy to love on in our family. Shortly after posting on FB and Instagram I immediately felt shame. Shame that I so casually posted about our pregnancy. Shame that I wasn’t even sensitive to my friends and family on social media who might be struggling or still waiting for their first. There’s not a minute that I forget what that’s like. I feel as though I can’t keep quite about the miracles and gifts that God has placed in our lives. 

In March of 2013 I was told I had bilaterally blocked tubes and too much scar tissue up there to have them opened up and produce children. I’ve now been gifted with 6 pregnancies. No, I may not have 6 living children- but heck, 6!! Not bad for being told it won’t ever happen. 

So here’s the background:

  • 3 days before I was due for my cycle I emailed my nurse at the clinic from bed knowing the weekend was coming and I needed to order our meds for the next cycle.
  • Got out of bed and decided- sure I may as well waste a cheapie from WalMart…..
  • Totally shocked and amazed and completely confused at how DARK that line was for only 10dpo
  • Called RE and explained that I had sent the email before getting out of bed and tested…. they agreed to see me through Beta Hell.

Beta#1 – 225.5

Beta#2 – 610.7

Beta#3 – 2102

Ultrasound #1 – gestational sac + fetal pole at 4w+5d but measuring 1w ahead

Ultrasound #2 – confirmed HB of 124 – measuring 1w ahead again (5w6d- but measuring 6+6)

Ultrasound #3 – measuring again 1 full week ahead- HB 169 (8w but measuring 9w)

So- today I am 10w even. It’s been a long few weeks. I was hit very hard in weeks 4-7 with Influenza A, then a stomach virus, and then pretty bad morning sickness set in and I was miserable until my RE gave me Diclegis. It’s changed the quality of my life dramatically and I am so thankful for modern medicine when holistic approaches do not work. 

EDD: Oct 2nd, 2017 

Next appointment: March 13th

Maternity clothes: pulled out some stretchy pants this week! So much more comfortable come 5p!

Sleep: I am actually sleeping a bit better than I was with Crosby. Might be the medication, or the fact that I’m going all day and don’t stop!

Food cravings: Grapefruit Juice, ice cold lemon water, nothing too particular! 

Symptoms: Extreme Morning Sickness, fatigue, mild cramping, sore lower back.

Movement: Not yet! Hopefully soon!

What I’m loving: The opportunity to grow another baby. The opportunity to practice being normal and not fear and anxiety driven.

What I’m looking forward to: Feeling movements and knowing the gender.

I’m so excited, but nervous, and happy and terrified. I have felt every emotion on the spectrum. But I am in awe that we have finally had a spontaneous pregnancy- that has not miscarried. Granted I am so aware than anything can happen at anytime- but so far this babe is a survivor, thriving, being amazing at making his/her presence known! I’m in shock and awe. I feel so lucky and blessed to be experiencing this. It’s exhilarating!!

I can’t wait to watching this pregnancy progress and see what God’s future is for us. 

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8 thoughts on “On to number 2!!!

  1. Love! Jesus!

    Poem – What is love?

    Two men came to Jesus
    With different motivations.
    They asked Him the same question
    Relevant to all the nations:

    Which is the Most Important?
    The answer was the same.
    Jesus did not manipulate
    He was not there to play a game.

    “Love the Lord your God” said Jesus
    as He quoted from The Law –
    to fulfill and not abolish
    was His purpose, full of awe.

    Jesus did not make all Scripture
    Into one new great commandment.
    He summarized The Law and Prophets
    “First and Greatest” and “The Second.”

    The Love of God is higher
    Than the love of any man.
    Receive from God, give back to God-
    Then to others, that’s His plan.

    The Love of God involves much more
    Than simply “love your fellow man.”
    Worship, trust, and pray to God,
    and obey Him – that’s His plan

    To worship and pray to neighbors,
    Whoever they may be,
    Or trust and obey our enemies
    Would be idolatry.

    The love of God is first and greatest,
    And the love of man is second.
    “All we need is love” are words
    of dead Beetles on the pavement.

    “The entire law is summed up in a single command”
    are not the words of Jesus our Salvation.
    It’s false teaching of Paul the Pharisee
    an “accuser of our brethren.”

    “Love” without God is Satan’s word through Paul
    in his chapter to the Corinthians.
    “I will show you the most excellent way”
    is the road to eternal perdition.

    Where is God in Paul’s chapter on love?
    Nowhere in view of the eye.
    Paul sings about himself like a Mexican Mariachi
    “I, I, I, I.”

    Jesus is The Most Excellent Way
    Not the words of a Pharisee.
    The words of Jesus are very clear.
    Jesus said, “You must follow ME.”

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  2. Congratulations to you guys!!! I pray you have a healthy, safe, and enjoyable pregnancy. Don’t feel bad about sharing your happy news with others. You are giving all the glory to God for His faithfulness in your life. Not everyone has the same stories, but God is good to all of us, Amen! XOXO ❤

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  3. Keep looking forward and listening to the voice of Jesus in the Gospels, through His appointed Apostles. Don’t listen to the voice of an accuser.

    Poem – Looking forward (Rocky)

    Jesus never calls us out
    For what we used to be.
    His voice is so much greater
    Than paul the Pharisee.

    “You are Simon son of John”
    said Jesus, without elaboration.
    No mention of a cloudy past
    No hint of condemnation.

    No accusation against the brothers
    No comments dark and obscure,
    Writing to the Church in Corinth
    “that is what some of you were.”

    Not the voice of the accuser,
    Boss Paul the Pharisee,
    Telling the redeemed people of God
    About what they used to be.

    Jesus never said right is wrong,
    He never said wrong is right.
    He came so we can turn from darkness
    And into His glorious light.

    “Neither do I condemn you” said Jesus,
    to a woman entrapped by dogs.
    The game the dogs play is the same today,
    Except now they do it on blogs.

    “Go and sin no more” said Jesus,
    Don’t relive that history.
    Look forward, not back, don’t dwell on your past.
    “You will be called” Rocky.

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