8 Months

Dearest Wild Child (aka: Kobe),

You are brilliant. You are mindful. You are calculated and energetic. Watching your wheels spin and spin and not-so-quietly process the world around you is impressive. Your explosive moods and emotions will make for fierce opposition- but if careful- it will excel you in a huge world of opportunities!

You are spirited – just like big bro! You are… simply amazing. Being your momma is a gift, even when I don’t understand your ways yet! In due time we will sync up and things will bloom!

I admire your tenacious attitude and I cannot wait to see you grow in ways I can’t even imagine!

Love you always, even in my frustration,

Your Momma

Kobe’s likes: Baths, water, swimming, being held, FOOD and/or nursing, learning, singing, dancing, music, tickling.

Kobe’s dislikes: naps. Waking up alone, bananas, when momma walks away, getting undressed (unless the bath is running) or dressed, diaper changes.

Nicknames: Kobbers, chunky, chubba, Bro Bro, Kobe-aww-shee.

Height & weight: His length is yet to be discovered! But Kobe had something that resembled seizure-like activity a few weeks ago and he clocked in at 22lbs 4oz of pure chubba!


  • Says mama and Hi on occasion
  • Still working on attempting to crawl, but scooting lots and if I walk away and come back he definitely makes a lot of progress!
  • Can go from belly to hands and knees to sitting with no effort.
  • Pulling him self halfway up.
  • Rolls around like a wild man.
  • 2 teeth are here and the two top teeth are ALLLLLLMOST through (one has finally cut, just waiting for it to show all the way!)
  • Eats just about anything and everything with zero issues.
  • Showing his sense of humor and calling for specific play-time activities.

Swallowed up in Mommyhood

Anyone else feeling swallowed whole by this gig called “Mom”? Just me?

Ok, good.

After my first was born I struggled finding some balance. He was not a fussy babe, he just literally didn’t sleep until he was 12m old. He would spend anywhere from 3-5 hours a night awake- just kicking it. We quickly maxed out and it took a while to find our footing and balance. It was hard, I acquired PPD/A… but slowly came back up for fresh air once we all were sleeping again. He was my “spirited babe”.

Well fast forward to present time. I’ve somehow managed to grow and make another spirited baby- buuut thankfully he sleeps-ish… I say “ish” because he mostly sleeps and I lay awake being used as a human pacifier all.night.long. Reverse the roles though. He is fussy and discontent nearly all day, all wake times. Unless he’s happy- then he is VERY happy.

All that to say, I’ve been swallowed up in this mom gig. I looked up from having my head down for so long and realized I had nearly isolated myself from friends – not on purpose, I think in my survival efforts I just naturally couldn’t keep up at the same pace. I realized I have zero hobbies, I never have time to read, do any type of bible study… heck- I was blessed with a shower last night but it got cut short due to others needing something.

Here’s what’s happening though- I am constantly wondering why I can’t get it together. Why can’t I find my balance? Force my babes into a schedule? Plan and even predict my days like I want to! But then- I said something via Marco Polo chatting to a friend and I had a brief moment of clarity before I shriveled back up.

God gave me these boys because He knows what He’s doing. He knew they needed me and I was going to be the best momma for them. I desire structure, organization, schedules, tidy house and clean floors and…. my list can go on and on. But in an effort to transform me, renew me and make me more like Him, He’s given me something opposite of what I want. Let’s be honest- this whole mom gig isn’t about ME anyway. My boys are separate and different people. If I projected on them what I wanted them to be like they wouldn’t be them.

*light bulb*

No wonder this thing is so hard… so emotionally, spiritually and physically draining.

Sacrificial Love. Giving of myself daily- wholly to two little people and somehow finding enough of me to give to my husband or anyone else I encounter. It.is.exhausting. Thankfully I have a connection to the sustainer, the healer, the giver. I have a connection to The One who knows exactly who my boys are and who they are going to be and what they need. Thus giving me exactly what I need to be their momma, his wife, her friend, that sister, etc.

Guys, I’m not/haven’t been tapping into this relationship. But here’s my dilemma: hooooow????

For those who have had spirited children who are all consuming literally night and day: how do you sneak away? When do you get time to study God’s word? How do you do all the things? Maintain the home, relationships, the kids (Ifeel like i nurse my babe like 20 million hours a day and 50 million hours a night), the never ending list of pressing and time sensitive tasks?

Someone teach me your ways! Especially if you balance a job or two mixed in there….

πŸ˜‚ my hubby says to give myself more grace- but grace doesn’t feed me the word. Grace doesn’t fill me with Gods presence.

Ugh. Mommyhood… the seasons will seem short and insignificant someday. But my right now is important too. And my right now needs some more Jesus time with a side of balance restored.

7 Months

Dear Kobe,

My goodness! Boy, you are quite a spirited child little man! You are constantly wiggling, attempting to move all around, rarely content for stretches of time, extremely impatient, but soooo sensitive and gentle and you can see the kindness piercing through those hazel eyes! You are so opinionated but also very easy going. You are wild yet taking your time figuring out this whole crawling thing.

I love your little ball of energy self and for such a (not-so-little) little dude- your personality is huge and packed up so perfectly. You keep this momma on her toes with your frequent meltdowns and demand for attention.

I do the best that I can and I pray it’s good enough and that God will fill the spaces I’m unable to fill. He’s made you perfectly and with a purpose. I am so thankful for your little life and I cannot wait to watch how God uses you.

Love always,

Your Momma!

Kobe’s Likes:

Food. Whether that is nursing or whatever is on mommas plate- he wants it and he’ll love it. There isn’t much he doesn’t like so far! He’s a huge fan of bath time and nursies. He enjoys singing along with the worship team or babbling so loudly during church that you’d think he was the one preaching. Kobe is a big fan, so far, of the great outdoors!

Kobe’s Dislikes:

Diaper or clothing changes. Waiting… for anything. Bananas. Getting out of the bath is not his fav. He’d stay forever if I’d like him. The car seat is still a toss up.

Nicknames: Kobbers, Bro Bro, chunky, chubbers.

Weight & Height: no clue. But 12m clothing is getting a tad tight and 18m pj’s are fitting pretty good! I *think* the last time he was weighed (about 3ish weeks ago) he was 20lbs.


  • Sitting completely unassisted, also pushing himself back up to sitting when falling over or reaching a tad too far for a toy.
  • Getting in position and ready to crawl/scoot.
  • 2 teeth popped through shortly after his 6m check up. 2 top teeth are working their way down.
  • Thinking about pulling himself up.
  • Bro bro still doesn’t care to roll much, but does it when needed.
  • Babbles and makes all the noises. Such as: yah-yah-yah, Manama, dadadada. However imitating a pterodactyl is his go-to!

Happy Half Birthday Chubbers

Dear Kobe,

6 months ago you made your debut but it feels like I have known you my whole life. I am daily blown away at the speed of your growth – not only physically, but mentally! You have the absolute sweetest, softest demeanor. You are busy learning and soaking life in at all times. You are seriously ticklish. You are sensitive, snuggly and all sorts of wonderful.

I hope someday you grow to love wardrobe changes- but for now I don’t mind wrestling your little bottom back into clothes as you try and scoot away.

I pray that the way your eyes light up when you see your Bro Bro and your daddy stays that way FOREVER! You truly think Bro Bro is the bees knees. And that’s ok, I think so too!

I constantly pray that your heart forever belong to Jesus first and you grow to be firm in truth and faith! I love you Kobe, every single chubby ounce of you!!!

Kobe’s Likes: BATHS! Bro Bro, tickles, naps, boob (which usually go hand-in-hand), he loves the sound of his own voice, finally likes car rides! WIN! Emptying his bag of toys.

Kobe’s Dislikes: diaper changes, clothing changes, being set down, waking up alone, bananas.

Nicknames: Chunky, chubbers, Kobster, chubba, Bro Bro.

Weight & height: Kobe is 19lbs 2oz and 27.5in tall. I love doing comparisons, and although Kobe seems bigger he’s actually smaller than Crosby was at 6m! (Crosby was 20lbs and 28in tall)


  • Sitting unassisted – rarely falls over
  • Rolls from tummy to back and half rolls from back to tummy. Although he doesn’t really care for rolling!
  • Working on that pincer grasp- sooo cute!
  • Starting solids this week!
  • Not showing any signs of crawling yet but I have a suspicion it will be soon.
  • Making different sounds with his voice