I snuggled in close and felt your body slowly relax as you drifted off into a sweet sleep. Bedtime ran a bit late last night, I think you were excited to turn 5 and your excitement kept you “pumped up!”.
As I ran my finger through your thick blonde hair I was remembering that just 5 short years ago you were still safe inside my belly. Warm. Cozy. Tiny. Safe from life’s troubles and woes. I wished I could remember exactly what your tumbles and turns felt like, or what my belly did when you had the hiccups. When I went to bed that night, I had no clue I’d be up a few short hours later in the throes of labor eagerly awaiting your arrival.
Only God knew exactly the gift you’d be to me. Only God knows the struggles, fears, Joy, achievements and failures you’ll face. Only He knows the depths of your heart, but for some reason He picked me to be your mama. In all my glorious failings you are still such a sweet, sensitive, cautious, creative, loving, joyful kid. You are strong. You’re braver than you think you are. Your thoughtful and kind. My deepest prayer is that you will continue in those virtues. Hold them close to your heart and keep seeking God.
It was a few weeks ago we did VBS, Staycation Style. You started talking about how God is the King over EVERYTHING. The video mentioned making God the King over your life too. You asked me how that works and I was so ill prepared for such a huge question (you have a way of doing this- I’m always amazed at your intuitive and contemplative mind). But after we talked you decided that God was the King over your life. You’ll probably make this decision a few times more- but I weep at the thought that He is vital to your everything. He is present and tangible in your world.
Your greatest joy is your family, especially your cousin Christian. You admire him with every bone in your body. If he says jump, you jump. If he says run, you run. Your eye balls light up every morning when you first lay eyes on Cameron, and if you are the last to wake up, you’re questioning where Kobe is. You are growing into a young boy full of care and concern and a sense of responsibility.
Daily I am in awe over your bigness and I find myself scratching my head – how did it go so fast and how do I make it slow down?
You are a true gift. A bright light of goodness and joy. We couldn’t love you any more if we tried.
Love you always,
Weight & Height: 42/43 pounds and 3ft 8in tall. Size 5 clothing.
Teeth: no wiggle teeth yet!
Sleep: 11-12 hours a night. Probably the last time I will report sleep.
Nicknames: Croz, Crozzy-D, Broccoli-Chob, Chobby.