Crosby is 3!

Whoa whoa whoa. Not only is my biggest little 3 yrs old now, but I am about 5 weeks late writing the blog!

So- here goes!

Dear Crosby,

3 amazing years have come and gone and I am still in awe of the little person you are and who you are becoming. God has been so good and gracious and making time feel so so precious.

You are so crazy smart, silly, funny, determined, sassy and a leader in the making. You also have a sweet, sensitive and loving spirit. You still love to snuggle and you give THE BEST kisses around (besides your dad).

You started school this year, pre-school. It includes your speech therapy, but you’ve caught up beautifully to your peers!

You have become insanely creative and independent- so much so, sometimes your frustration and desire to do it “mine self” gets the best of you. But we’re really getting the hang of slowing down, trying again and guess what- YOU DID IT!

I love you more than my words can express. You are the light of my life and I am so proud and honored to be your momma. God has been so good to me in gifting you to me!

Love you always,

Your Momma

Weight: 35.8lbs but his 3yr check up got pushed back so I can do both Crosby’s and Kobe’s at the same time. So maybe closer to 36lbs? He is 3ft 3in tall the last I measured a few months ago. But he’s between a 3t and 4t- so pretty average I think!

Words: hello word explosion. We have been doing speech therapy since January 2018 and he is now almost fully caught up with his peers. They have dx’d “mild childhood apraxia of speech”. He has worked VERY hard to be understood and form words and sentences. I am so proud!

Teeth: All teeth are in and thriving – he had a lip and tongue tie re-revision done in April 2018 and it went smoothly. Recovery was easy and it helped with speech and some of his gag reflex.

Sleep/Naps: Crosby sleeps about 11-12hrs a night and he naps about every 2-3 days for about an hour. He’s nearly done napping. Sadness for mama!

Nicknames: Bubba, Bro Bro, Crozzy.


Because #momfail : 9&10 months


Dear Kobe,

Your little raspy voice is chatter boxing away in your crib as you attempt a nap. I’m super thankful you are sleeping now. And you’re pretty darn content to be placed in your crib for all sleep times now. Very rarely is it met with too much opposition. I think we all were needing our own sleep space.

You are incredibly ambitious. Your speed and hunger for learning is impeccable. The stairs are no obstacle to you and your interest in walking seems daunting- well to me at least! You have lots to explore and many little people to keep up with. And in my honest opinion- you keep up pretty good!

I love your zealous ‘tude, your love for being held is still my favorite- most of the time. Stay eager buddy, you’ve got lots to offer and I love watching you become YOU!

Love Always,

Your Momma

Kobe’s Likes & Disklikes:

He absolutely loves to do anything in and around water. He is a fish trapped in a baby’s body. He is a sucker for being in mommas arms, a foodie (aka vacuum for all the calories), loves his daddy, singing, dancing, and chasing big bro bro around the house! He does not care for diaper or wardrobe changes, ending nursing sessions, or when momma sets him down or leaves the room for a few.


Chunky. Bro Bro. Bubba. Buddy. Kobbers, Kobs.

Height & Weight:

At his 9m appointment he was 23lbs even and 28.5″ long. He seems to have gotten taller since then as the clothes he once wore well are no longer fitting. So I am assuming his little growth spurt happened just after that appointment. We are in 12-18month clothing for the most part. But honestly, kids clothing is a joke. Never true to size.


  • Saying mama, buh-bye, and hi on occasion.
  • Crawling like a pro and on to the next!
  • Attempting to walk with a little assistance.
  • 6(!!!) teeth!
  • Eating full meals and snacks whenever he can! #chunky
  • Sleeping 10+ hours at night (on average it’s about 10.5hrs) and 2 naps (about an hour-1.5hr each)
  • 8 Months

    Dearest Wild Child (aka: Kobe),

    You are brilliant. You are mindful. You are calculated and energetic. Watching your wheels spin and spin and not-so-quietly process the world around you is impressive. Your explosive moods and emotions will make for fierce opposition- but if careful- it will excel you in a huge world of opportunities!

    You are spirited – just like big bro! You are… simply amazing. Being your momma is a gift, even when I don’t understand your ways yet! In due time we will sync up and things will bloom!

    I admire your tenacious attitude and I cannot wait to see you grow in ways I can’t even imagine!

    Love you always, even in my frustration,

    Your Momma

    Kobe’s likes: Baths, water, swimming, being held, FOOD and/or nursing, learning, singing, dancing, music, tickling.

    Kobe’s dislikes: naps. Waking up alone, bananas, when momma walks away, getting undressed (unless the bath is running) or dressed, diaper changes.

    Nicknames: Kobbers, chunky, chubba, Bro Bro, Kobe-aww-shee.

    Height & weight: His length is yet to be discovered! But Kobe had something that resembled seizure-like activity a few weeks ago and he clocked in at 22lbs 4oz of pure chubba!


    • Says mama and Hi on occasion
    • Still working on attempting to crawl, but scooting lots and if I walk away and come back he definitely makes a lot of progress!
    • Can go from belly to hands and knees to sitting with no effort.
    • Pulling him self halfway up.
    • Rolls around like a wild man.
    • 2 teeth are here and the two top teeth are ALLLLLLMOST through (one has finally cut, just waiting for it to show all the way!)
    • Eats just about anything and everything with zero issues.
    • Showing his sense of humor and calling for specific play-time activities.

    Swallowed up in Mommyhood

    Anyone else feeling swallowed whole by this gig called “Mom”? Just me?

    Ok, good.

    After my first was born I struggled finding some balance. He was not a fussy babe, he just literally didn’t sleep until he was 12m old. He would spend anywhere from 3-5 hours a night awake- just kicking it. We quickly maxed out and it took a while to find our footing and balance. It was hard, I acquired PPD/A… but slowly came back up for fresh air once we all were sleeping again. He was my “spirited babe”.

    Well fast forward to present time. I’ve somehow managed to grow and make another spirited baby- buuut thankfully he sleeps-ish… I say “ish” because he mostly sleeps and I lay awake being used as a human pacifier all.night.long. Reverse the roles though. He is fussy and discontent nearly all day, all wake times. Unless he’s happy- then he is VERY happy.

    All that to say, I’ve been swallowed up in this mom gig. I looked up from having my head down for so long and realized I had nearly isolated myself from friends – not on purpose, I think in my survival efforts I just naturally couldn’t keep up at the same pace. I realized I have zero hobbies, I never have time to read, do any type of bible study… heck- I was blessed with a shower last night but it got cut short due to others needing something.

    Here’s what’s happening though- I am constantly wondering why I can’t get it together. Why can’t I find my balance? Force my babes into a schedule? Plan and even predict my days like I want to! But then- I said something via Marco Polo chatting to a friend and I had a brief moment of clarity before I shriveled back up.

    God gave me these boys because He knows what He’s doing. He knew they needed me and I was going to be the best momma for them. I desire structure, organization, schedules, tidy house and clean floors and…. my list can go on and on. But in an effort to transform me, renew me and make me more like Him, He’s given me something opposite of what I want. Let’s be honest- this whole mom gig isn’t about ME anyway. My boys are separate and different people. If I projected on them what I wanted them to be like they wouldn’t be them.

    *light bulb*

    No wonder this thing is so hard… so emotionally, spiritually and physically draining.

    Sacrificial Love. Giving of myself daily- wholly to two little people and somehow finding enough of me to give to my husband or anyone else I encounter. Thankfully I have a connection to the sustainer, the healer, the giver. I have a connection to The One who knows exactly who my boys are and who they are going to be and what they need. Thus giving me exactly what I need to be their momma, his wife, her friend, that sister, etc.

    Guys, I’m not/haven’t been tapping into this relationship. But here’s my dilemma: hooooow????

    For those who have had spirited children who are all consuming literally night and day: how do you sneak away? When do you get time to study God’s word? How do you do all the things? Maintain the home, relationships, the kids (Ifeel like i nurse my babe like 20 million hours a day and 50 million hours a night), the never ending list of pressing and time sensitive tasks?

    Someone teach me your ways! Especially if you balance a job or two mixed in there….

    😂 my hubby says to give myself more grace- but grace doesn’t feed me the word. Grace doesn’t fill me with Gods presence.

    Ugh. Mommyhood… the seasons will seem short and insignificant someday. But my right now is important too. And my right now needs some more Jesus time with a side of balance restored.