Fabu (FULL) Friday

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EEEK! It’s Friday! What’s even more amazing about this Friday?

I am at home, in my PJs. And it’s 1:30pm.

This week many of us are reflecting on what we are thankful for. This year, although one of the harder years I’ve endured, I have much to be thankful for. Although I could go on and on (seriously, pages FULL) about all the things I am thankful for I’m still full from stuffing my face and I’ll keep my list short and sweet. The most important thing I am thankful for, the salvation I have in Jesus. The forgiveness I’ve been shown and the redemption, sanctification process, and how He is refining me daily to be more and more like Him.

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I’m gonna start with these too beauties! Oh.My.Gosh. These girls make my heart swell. We had a sleepover last weekend and it was packed full of hot-tubbin’, game playin’, moving watchin’, sleepless laughter and fun.

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They also got to be the first passengers in….. MY NEW CAR (new to me, it’s a 2010 GMC Terrain)!! My Hubs blessed my socks off and got me the car of my dreams! It was much needed as we had been praying over his Jeep for months now. Just asking the Lord to extend the mileage and use. So while we did that, He was making a way to provide the next vehicle.

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It was dumping rain when I took this picture so it’s not the best quality, but YAY! Seriously such an amazing gift!

After I took the girls home, after our fun and games, I came home and got to work. I know, it’s a little early, but hey this was the weekend I had the time do this. I cleaned my fanny off and then decorated for the Upcoming holiday season. It was fabulous! Seriously, so awesome!

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The corner of our sofa has been my retreat this week! I have been journaling, reading, and snuggling up in the sparkle of the lights and cozy warmth of the fireplace. This is by far my most favorite!

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Truth right here, gang. In my quiet times lately these are two truths that have been steadily on my heart. Trusting. Waiting. Knowing that He is working all things together for my good and His Glory. I love what He’s doing in my life and I love that He has been so faithful. This is a beautiful reminder for me to keep trusting and to know the He, alone, is my hope!

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This!!!! Oh my! So, my girlfriend, L, sent this to me yesterday morning. I about died. I am telling you, my furry friend Georgie is in LOVE with the skirt of the tree. I’ve never seen a cat more obsessed with a tree.

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Heehee, isn’t that the truth around the Holidays?

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Yup, especially on Saturday’s (or days off).

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Every.Single.Morning.

Happy Thanksgiving (I know, a day late). I hope that you all had a wonderful time with family and/or friends. If you have a large family, like we do, the festivities are still underway!

Next stuffing sesh, Saturday evening!

Fabu Friday!

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Another week has passed. And I’m telling you, it typically surprises me when it comes but this time I feel like it took a million years forever for Friday to get here. Dragging on and on and on……..

Last Friday, on our agenda, we had a pretty rad concert to catch. And let me tell you, it was rad! I feel like I finally found “my people”. When I lead worship at my church I typically don’t hold back. There is loads bouncing, jumping, and singing my guts out (usually until I am really out of breath). It’s so fun. Once Hillsong United came out, I discovered something….I’m telling you I BELONG WITH THEM! Haha, ok, I don’t think I could keep up with them, but man, it was so great. It was really an amazing night of worship (and entertainment).

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I am super thankful to have had the opportunity to go (allll thanks goes to my amazing boss).

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Huge difference…

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I can’t tell you how true I think this statement is. 🙂

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Happy (almost) Turkey/stuff your face full/eatwaytoomuchandfeelsicklater Day! If you guys have a large family or small group you might be starting the binge fest early. I know we are, festivities start Tuesday. I better bust out my leggings and stretchy pants now.

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This guy, Georgie, kills me. He has never ever snuggled me (or anyone for that matter) like this before. It was a glorious 20 minutes of snuggle time with my furry friend.

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This. This was my favorite part of the week. Ok, that’s a lie. I’m not a big fan of needles, at least it gets injected into the tush area where my eye balls cannot see how far the giant needle goes in, last time the hubs was a champ and did it flawlessly – this time the nurse did it, and I was bruised for days. I get weak just thinking about it. Anyway, triple lining of 8.5 and TWO follies of 17mm and 27mm (10,000 Novarel). I had some small little ones lingering around but nothing noteworthy or nearly mature enough to consider.

 TWO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m voting for twins. If I have a say, that’s what I want. Two for the price of one.

Ok, just kidding, but seriously, I’ll take what whatever He’s willing to give!

I think for the first time in our entire journey I am absolutely terrified of both outcomes. I soo want it to work but at the same time I am completely scared. I haven’t even really been able to clearly communicate the fear of either outcome. I think what might terrify me the most is a negative outcome or another chemical pregnancy. I’ve had two of those and 3 losses. But what’s equally terrifying is the possibility of actually achieving pregnancy again and get attached only for it to fail in weeks to come – and that’s only an assumption – it could also go perfectly. See I can’t even decide what’s worse, even though I was trying to.

So, what makes this Fabulous? Well, truthfully, I think it’s completely amazing that I (we – hubs and me) only have ONE responsibility. Have sex. 1, that is fabulous in itself and I don’t think that needs any explanation. 2, I have no control of the outcome. God, the author and creator of life, has all the control and a major plan for our life. Whether that includes children……or not. Ouch, maybe that’s what’s hard to really swallow…. Perhaps my desires and my idea of a family isn’t at all what He has planned. Some how that has to be ok, and right now, it’s only sorta ok. But regardless, its fabulous because this relieves me of all the pressure to perform. We just simply rest in the decisions and provisions and ride along waiting for direction/answers. Now THAT is Fabu! That is what Fabulous is all about, my friend!

Tonight, I get to have a slumber party with two girls, who happen to be my favorite, I hope they’re ready for pictures!

Have a Happy Friday!

Oh and in case you were wondering how many selfies it takes to get ONE good one in the car (don’t worry we were waiting in line at a coffee shop, not actually driving), here’s your answer:

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Fabu Friday!

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Holy Batman… How on earth is it Friday already? I am seriously baffled that it’s here already. I’m especially excited for today because we are going to the Winter Jam Concert tonight. I am super thrilled to get to worship and have the opportunity to watch some of my favs. I think I am most excited about Hillsong.

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I think I’ll start at the beginning. Last Saturday the sister and I decided to have some girl time and I ended up with some funky/fancy/sparkly nails. Just in time for the holidays. I may or may not keep them up, but it was a nice little pick me up.

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On Sunday morning I woke up early to get ready for church. But typically before I roll out of bed I try to check my email and pop on to some social media sites while my eye balls are waking up (if I have the time, that is). I woke up check the email and saw this:

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I am not sure I have the words to express my gratitude and thankfulness that someone would remember my little Colton and take action to do something meaningful for him. This melted me. Especially when I realized that not many people remember this kind of stuff. I don’t really expect people to, but it’s incredibly moving when someone makes an effort to remember and do something sweet in remembrance. Thank you, Sweet friend! (you can find her blog here)

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Pictured above is my Mug Exchange package that I was so blessed by! I’ve never really participated in such exchanges, but this year I was able to connect with SO many more woman who have been through what I  have been through and bless someone else with a fun package as well! Thank you SO much Lo (her blog is here) for giving so generously! Also thank you Chelsea for hosting and making sure everything was perfect!

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 I promised more pictures of the family that was in town. Once again I failed at taking loads of amazing pics, but I did happen to sneak in a few silly ones. Seriously, I can’t get enough of these kiddos. I lub them so much and I cannot wait for them to be here and I get more auntie time. Seriously though, is there anything better than being an auntie? I don’t think so…

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Many many of you already follow Elisha and know that recently she posted some funny facts about herself. Well in her comments I had mentioned one of my quirky facts: I hate all wooden utensils. And by hate, I mean, I cannot stand them. I do not own, nor will I ever own wooden utensils. GROSS. So about a day later I received this silly and disturbing text from her. That girl, she sure knows how to pull a prank and make this girl cringe a little. Once I battled the migraine I was able to giggle about it, however in the midst of a migraine, I wanted to shiver and cringe and delete it as fast as possible.

And because these were funny and cute, I’ll leave you with this:

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Seriously guys, it’s stinkin’ cold. Brrrr!

 

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Yup. Needs no explanation.

 

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This is me. Every.Single.Time. Poor Hubs.

 

Fabu Friday!

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OK, I need the “Most Annoying Blogger” Award or something… I swear I will NOT post again until Monday. I think…. I hope. OK, I can’t make any promises, sorry.

I think I have also earned the “I suck at remembering to take pictures when family is in town” Award too. I swear over the last 2 days I have maybe 3 pictures…  And it’s the same picture but snapped 3 times, actually, my sister may have even took the picture and sent it to me. My memory is failing me. Maybe this weekend I will redeem my picture-taking abilities and share them next week.

All in all my house is full which typically results in a full heart. This is so completely true, but I can also say, holy buckets my house has never, ever been so full.. and noisy. This morning I even managed to trip over a little truck in the kitchen. My heart swelled and simultaneously broke all at the same time. I immediately thought of Colton. I miss him, a lot.

…Where was I?

Oh yes… this:

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This little one, offspring of my twinsie and his new best friend, our newest addition, Jamus. Seriously you guys, when he says “Oopsies”, I melt into a puddle. Apparently he can be selective with his smoochies, but this TeeTee (my nickname instead of Auntie) has gotten a whopping 3-4 smoochies in 2 days. I win 🙂

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So, this was taken the day before (maybe the day of) they journeyed up and over to Spokane. (P.S they currently reside in Sunny Land, Arizona) This girl kills me. If she thought Arizona was cold, she is ill prepared for Spokane. But, my heart thumps a little harder just seeing that smile!

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I wouldn’t call these suckers Fabu. Actually, I would call them: down-right, awful. (ok, I would probably use another word to describe them if I were feeling feisty) Letrozole, also called Femara. However, the ONLY reason I put this in the fabu portion is because, each month I get overly hopeful and  incredibly excited about the opportunity to be just one tiny step closer, and with God’s grace He has provided the means (emotionally, financially, spiritually, peace) to keep walking down this path (reasoning for new pills = last cycle = failed, don’t worry I cried plenty). Because the side effects can be less than glamorous I made it a goal to do something nice for myself at least once a day… Here’s what I came up with:

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Hot Coco and whip cream…. YUM

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Getting ready for the day flooded by candle light in the wee dark hours of the morning provided a gentle way to wake up and it smells amazing! Thank you Bath & Body Works for providing me with a sniffingly pleasurable morning!

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Yup, it’s a little early (but hey, I needed it)… I fully embraced the Holiday cups at Sbux and flipped on some (GASP) Christmas music. I had to. Kim Walker-Smith released her new Christmas album and it would be torture to purchase and not listen until the season permits.

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Seriously though, it’s almost like full survival mode over here. OK, it’s not THAT bad. But, I’m all for finding the joy in the now so I don’t miss out on all the cool blessings around me. Overall, besides some interesting side effects, it’s been quite an amazing week and I am excited to have the opportunity to share my Fabu Moments with everyone.

And because I thought this was hilarious:

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Happy Friday Gang!

**** Also, to tag off of yesterday’s post, I wanted to make sure that I mentioned, I am truly doing so much better than I have been previously, I am still not whole and healed but again, on the Up Hill Climb. It was simply a topic that I needed to share, not just for myself but for so many who haven’t said anything and wish they could. I also failed to mention that I understand how unfair it would be for me (or anyone else) to have the expectation for others to “tip toe” around the person who is struggling/grieving(me, your best friend, your sister, etc). That was not my intention at all and I now realize it may have come across that way. My point was really : be compassionate and understanding of our reactions (or lack thereof).